I'M BACK BETCHES!

That title was very uncharacteristic of me, but I felt the need to exclaim the fact that I am writing here again after a year of nothing. Also because of the fact that I spent the last hour searching for my login name and password, reseting files, getting confirmation emails, etc. about the subject. Then finally I got both my email and password right. I swear I could hear angels singing.

Reading my posts from a mere year ago, I find that I've changed in that short amount of time. I used to complain about being alone, now I'm happy to have my privacy. I've since moved away from home and, sure I miss my family, but I'm definitely becoming my own person now. It's really liberating. And I find comfort in reading those old posts, because I see the amount of growth that can happen in 12 months.

One of them was from when I was alone on the weekend, cold and shakey. I remember it perfectly, actually. That feeling isn't uncommon, but that's not to say I'm angsty and cold all the time. But it's a very specific thing that I feel where my chest gets weak and it feels like everything is shaking when really I'm just sitting still. It's really strange. But just reading that and remembering it was like Past Emily saying it's still gonna be okay. Like this happens often but it always stops.

Cliche sentiments aside, I'm glad to be back and writing. Even if only for now. Chances are in a month I'll stop out of forgetfulness or just plain laziness. When that time comes, perhaps a year will pass and I'll look back again. Maybe that time I'll remember my login info.